Nov
21
It’s been a busy week for Samantha. 2 months bday party for her on Saturday, shots on Tuesday and a visit to my office on Wednesday. I don’t know if it’s all the commotion or what, but Samantha has been extremely fussy whenever its time for her to sleep. She just wouldn’t go to sleep. She’s fine when she is awake but once we tried to put her to sleep that is when she gets really fussy. I don’t know what to do with her at this point. Brian has been working onsite all this week, so I am all by myself with her. Having this child made me realize that I really don’t have as much patience as I thought I have. So what then…how am I surviving this??? I’ve been wearing her around the house all day long. As comfortable as my carrier is there’s still lots of pressure on my back. Carrying her allows me to do only a few things such as bathroom, computer, tv, read…but I can not cook or eat or clean. This week being alone gave me another realization. Maybe I am not the stay at home type of mom that I always wanted to be. Maybe I am better off working. In any case, this week of experience kicked my ass and I have updated my resume and porfolio and it is ready to be send off. We need a nanny now. *sigh*
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as hard as it may feel now … things will get better soon. it is very hard now esp. when samantha is still so young — she still so dependent on you as her sole comfort. but as she get older — she will eventually learn how to soothe/comfort herself more and more.
but i agree with you — i thought i would like to be a stay-at-home mom too. but it is prob. the world most hardest job. st least it is harder than i ever expected it to be.
good luck in finding a nanny — it took us a while to find someone we can trust too. it is really hard leaving your baby in someone else care — and sometimes i still feel guilty in doing so.